University of Medicine and Health Sciences, St. Kitts. Doctor of Medicine Class of 2018!
In 2007, I graduated bottom of my class from high school with many educators, even distant family and friends telling me I would never make anything of my self.
In 2011, I graduated with honors with a Bachelor of Science degree in Accounting from University at Albany.
In 2013, I completed my Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Health Studies from New York University and received my certificate.
In the beginning of 2014, I was given the opportunity to expose myself to upper level sciences, review first year of medical school curriculum, to ready myself and prepare for the intense work load of medical school. This review program exposed me to my weaknesses and to my strengths. It has taught me a valuable lesson in discipline and focus.
A few days ago, I was accepted to University of Medicine and Health Sciences in St. Kitts to be part of their Doctor of Medicine program.
I’ve learned some valuable lessons on the way and here are some of them:
1) Work hard at a younger age and you’ll get where you want to be sooner. It will, overall, be less expensive and less time consuming.
2) Never let anyone tell you that you will never amount to anything. No, scratch that! Everyone is entitled to their opinions. Let them tell you whatever they want, but don’t ever put any weight on the opinions of individuals who do not know your own struggles or your life.
3) Networking is just as important as grades and academics, but grades will trump all else during initial evaluations for professional programs.
4) Learn your weaknesses and focus on making them better. Humans have a tendency to focus on what they are good at because of the satisfaction that comes from performing well in it. It takes hard work and discipline to get up and master something you are weak in.
5) No matter what you have accomplished in life, you will face failures and defeat. It is inevitable that you will struggle in some aspects of life. You may experience defeat in courses, standardized tests, interviews, or it can be things as simply as time management. Learn to identify what your weaknesses are.
6) Sometimes it takes monetary investment or time to learn your weaknesses, but in the long run it will be well worth it. You may have a hard time getting yourself to invest, and sometimes you may look back and regret the investments you’ve taken. This is all a learning experience. If you failed at something, understand that you just discovered one way it doesn’t work. One way that will not get you there. You can scratch that method off your list and perfect the methods that will help you reach your goal.
7) Lucky 7! Well this should in theory be #1. Understand that you are where you are and that you’ve only accomplished what you have accomplished only by the grace of God. Your talent, your ability to work hard, and your dedication has all been gifted to you by God. Give thanks and praise him through everything. During my failures, I’ve had one individual, who inspires me and that I admire, sincerely remind me we should give thanks to God for not just the successes that he brings to our life, but also give thanks for the failures. The failures are set in place to shape you and mold you to be perfect for his master plan.
This is just the beginning of the journey for me. I know and understand fully the struggles (more like learning experiences) that are ahead of me in pursuing this dream. I understand the reality of how difficult it will be to secure a residency being a international medical graduate. I understand the reality of how difficult it will be to perform well and excel on the USMLE. One thing I know and I am confident in is that if God brought me this far, I know he’ll lead the way to make my dreams come true. This dream has not just been a selfish act on my part. This dream is my calling that has brought me out of a completely different career path back in 2011.
I’d like to thank the Ross family and the Admissions Committee at University of Medicine and Health Sciences, St. Kitts for seeing the potential in me to be a compassionate and competent physician. This medical school was founded by the same family that founded Ross University School of Medicine (which was later sold to DeVry Medical in ~2000).
University of Medicine and Health Sciences, St. Kitts - School of Medicine - M.D. Class of 2018.
A response to Dr. Richard Saul’s Claim that: ADHD Does Not Exist
In response to the TIME article about Dr. Richard Saul and his book: ADHD Does Not Exist.
This is coming from a person who struggled all his life in many aspects of his life. I finally got diagnosed as an adult. ADHD does NOT just affect academia, and surprisingly it always doesn’t even have to affect academics.
I completely agree that lack of attention and inability to concentrate are symptoms of various diseases and disorders. That is very evident. Any disease or disorder that impacts your brain in any way will have a profound impact on your attention. Perhaps teachers and parents are running to an ADHD diagnosis to get the upper hand and do well on standardized exams. After all, some methylphenidate will help the kids they don’t want to deal with relax.
However, ADHD is a very real disorder and even though getting biological tests to verify it is very expensive, biological tests DO exist. ADHD individuals have a clear and notable difference in maturity of certain regions of the brain and immaturity of other regions of the brain. ADHD is not just a neurotransmitter dysfunction, very clear and notable differences can be seen even via PET scans, and various radiographic images of the brain. On top of neurotransmitter dysfunction, there are clear differences in total brain chemistry and even the physiology of the brain.
I totally agree there is an over-diagnosis of ADHD for people that don’t really have it, but there is also a lack of diagnosis with people who actually exhibit the disorder.
The issue with diagnosis is that it is very expensive. A lot of physicians may just base their diagnosis on a few minutes of evaluations, and not a thorough exam.
I had a full workup; my initial diagnosis took approximately 3 months of evaluation, testing, and ruling out any and all other possible causes.
I consulted a second opinion even after that by one of the top neuro psychologists from Columbia University Medical Center to verify. It costs a fortune for a workup and is usually NOT covered by health insurance.
Dr. Richard Saul’s book should not focus on the assumption that ADHD doesn’t exist. The book should focus on the fact that a lot more healthcare professionals are unable to do the proper diagnostic testing necessary to rule out other causes for the symptoms. This is not just fault of the healthcare professional; it is in many ways, a major flaw in our legislation. Our health care system focuses so much on the well being of our physical health that we are not given the same resources to maintain and evaluate our mental health. A lack of resources and funding to allow physicians and healthcare professionals to do a proper workup on their patients is the missing component.
If a proper neuropsych evaluation costs approximately $3000, and is NOT covered by insurance in anyway, wouldn’t it just be easier to throw some Adderall at the patient and hope the symptoms go away, instead of worrying about performing all the tests and not getting compensated?
Neuropsych evaluations, neuro imaging, and blood tests are all expensive and time consuming.
Without these evaluations being backed by some governing entity which will compensate the healthcare professionals, you will continue to see an increase in improper diagnosis. This will continue to contribute to the stigma that ADHD does not exist.
Read up/Watch Dr. Russell Barkley’s work. He is a leading authority on ADHD and can show you clear reasons for why ADHD does exist and what those differences are…even biologically.
Dr. Russell Barkley has noted many biological and structural differences in the brain of an individual with ADHD. Here is some excerpts from his presentation in a recent conference:
"DESR would be anticipated from neuro-imaging findings:
Smaller, Less Active, Less Developed Brain Regions:
3-10% reduced regional volumes in these 5 regions:
Genetics contributes to under-development of this region while acquired ADHD may be related to smaller inferior dorsolateral frontal region
– Basal Ganglia (mainly striatum & globus pallidus)
– Cerebellum (central vermis area, more on right side)
– Anterior cingulate cortex (mostly shows under-activity) – Corpus callosum – forward aspect or splenium.
Size of this network is correlated with degree of ADHD symptoms, particularly inhibition.
No gender differences
2-3 year lag in brain development but achieving typical brain volumes by age 16.
Results are not due to taking stimulant medication.”
Dr. Russell Barkley does agree that ADHD should not be the disorder of attention, it is more a disorder of self-regulation and executive functioning.
Point blank: ADHD does exist. The recent increase in diagnosis for ADHD does not invalidate a very real disorder. It only validates our healthcare system’s inability for proper diagnosis and care of patients.
Ecclesiastes 3:11 - He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: he hath set the world in their heart..
There are certain things that I’ve been meaning to write about for a while now. I haven’t wrote about it because it’s something I am unable to articulate or eloquently express in mere words. It’s a state of mind, a never ending growth of emotions that has overtaken every nook and cranny of my mind and soul. My heart is filled with feelings of joy and bliss that cannot be written and expressed through the use of letters that form words, that form sentences, that form paragraphs that form meaning, because what it means to me will never be what it means to you.
We live a majority of our lives in a state of wonder. We look towards the future, and wonder about how our career, friends, family, spouse, and children will be. We try to understand what God has prepared for us, but unable to do so because he has never given us the gift to tell fortunes. We try to strike new relationships, wondering if this will be “the one”, or if this will be our partner. We live each moment in suspense of the unknown and inevitable future that lays before us.
In the past few months, I’ve learned to appreciate many things I’ve taken for granted. We will never know what God’s plan is for us, but all we can do is stay hopeful and faithful. The word, “Faithful” always strikes me, in relationships you can use it as identification of “not cheating”, or if you stop being so superficial and dig a little deeper you learn that the word “Faithful” is such a beautiful word with a grander meaning. Being Faithful means that you will be full of faith. Full of faith in your partner, and full of faith that no matter what happens, I will stick by you and believe in you. Full of faith that both you and I will believe and put our trust in God.
If God brought us together, who has the authority to break us apart? Only God.
A relationship built on the foundation of Christ, through Christ is something stronger and grander than any man can comprehend.
Ecclesiastes 4:12 - Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
I’ve come a long way to understand that if you forget God, and choose to push him aside for a relationship, that relationship will not result in the quality and quantity of happiness and love that could have been.
When you are able to say, feel, and understand ”.. Thou hast anointed my head with oil; My cup runneth over.” (Psalm 23:5), you know you are blessed, overwhelmed and beyond filled with love and compassion.
"I love you like I’ve never loved, I love you like I never love, and I’ll love you like I’ll never love."
Love flourishes in a relationship that learns to understand the both parties have a past. When you finally take a chance and reveal everything about your past, and that person is willing to forgive you of everything… that person is someone to adore. That person is someone to love and care for.
The moment you start to let go of your past, it slowly starts to fade away into darkness. Eventually time will pass, love with be more grounded and strengthened that the roots will embed so deep into your life that your partner has not only made it into your present and future, but she will also be part of your past.
She is my past, my present, and my future.
She is love, kindness, beauty, and perfection. She is everything that I adore about life and makes life sweeter than I ever thought was possible. She is understanding and caring, with a bigger heart than anyone else can see. She will be appreciated, cared for, adored, and loved in ways that comes naturally to me. She is my partner and I will love her, and never get tired of looking into her eyes. She is my love and I will give all that I have been, am, and will be. She makes my life less about me and more about God and our future together. She lets me worship, love, and be who I am.
She is the one I want to one day see a grey hair on and say “We are actually growing old together.”
She is the one, that if I died today or I am 100 years old, I have the confidence in saying “I have spent the remainder of my life loving her.”
She is the one that I want to kneel down in admiration and love for, because she not only inspires, but she drives and seeps love and kindness out of every pore.
She is the one that I want to grow in love together with. She is the one that radiates love and compassion to those around her. She walks into a room and takes the breaths away of a hundred souls. She makes me want to run to Christ and ask him for the privilege of calling her divine and heavenly because nothing in this physical world has ever moved me in such a way as she has.
Her love is pure and blissful, imperfectly perfect for me, and her mouth speaks words with such kindness and tender sweetness that makes even the toughest confused and fall to their knees. She is an example of God’s love, and what the power of love can do for a world full of hatred, curses, and evil.
At the end of it all, many will never understand the scope of this post, or the reasons for writing it. All I need is for you to say is, “Cool story bro.”
Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, and have a blessed New Year. I hope all of you find what you are looking for, what you never realized you were looking for. Everyone loves differently, and never compare your love to another humans’. Compare it to God’s love and what he has sacrificed for us.
Remember these simple things: Don’t be frustrated, be faithful, open your eyes, and all in due time.
“I sought to hear the voice of God and climbed the topmost steeple, but God declared: “Go down again - I dwell among the people.” ― John Henry Newman
Racism in Modern Society via. Social Media
*Excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes. This post has not been rechecked.
There has been quite the social media frenzy ever since it was announced that Miss America 2014 title was awarded to Miss New York, Nina Davuluri.
To begin with, the twittersphere has been going crazy over how an “arab” could have been crowned Miss America, especially considering we have just remembered those who moved on during the 12th anniversary of the 9/11 world trade center attacks.
Oh by the way, she is Indian.
First and foremost, I don’t pay attention to any of these beauty pageants, and I could care less about them. Some of the outrageous comments, statuses, and postings I’ve came across even in my own social collaboration of online friends have made me start thinking about the various social structures we have set up and the perception of individuals within our society.
So far I’ve seen four different types of people:
1) The ones prideful of their Indian heritage and boasting about how Miss America is Indian. I wonder how different the outpouring of support for Ms. Davuluri would be if the individual was Asian, Black, or …. oh my god, Caucasian.
2) The ones who think you should check yourself before going on social networks and boast about how these racist tweets are by a bunch of bigots. They claim hypocrisy in the sense that our previous generations, parents, guardians are racists to an even greater degree. They claim that we have no right to post statuses of support without fixing our own relatives, families, cultures, etc.
3) The silent observers.
4) The racists, who I assume just love the entire world hating on them.
For the supporters of Ms. Davuluri, evaluate yourself and make sure you are supporting the true cause here. The issue within our culture is that if we hear anything Indian, we like to go ahead and support it. It’s perfectly fine to boast about your Indian heritage and how you are reminded that you are proud to be an Indian. Her victory should NOT be the cause for your pride. Our country is a wonderful spiritual nation with its own issues that can be discussed later.
The issue here is the backlash against her, not because she’s Indian, not because she is Arab (she isn’t), not because she is representing New York. It has nothing to do with any of this.
The issue here is that she is being horribly discriminated against because of the color of her skin, the preconceived notions of many people within our society, and ignorance of uneducated individuals who clearly didn’t do so well in Geography class, but mastered Twitter 101 (makes you think what our society is putting effort on). Your support for Ms. Davuluri should not be entirely focused on the fact that she is Indian, or that she won; your support for her concerning this situation should be focused on the despicable comments against a broad spectrum of people in the entire world who are looked down upon based on a simple genetic difference that determines how many melanocytes are produced within their body (which is also highly influenced by external environmental factors as well), aka. the color of their skin.
To the individuals who believe it is very hypocritical of our culture to bash others because of their racist remarks when our own family members may be extremely racist:
You are right, many from Indian (or any other) heritage have family members who are extremely racist against different groups of people for various reasons. I’m never going to deny that, but it doesn’t excuse anyone from making these ignorant remarks. Just because our previous generation has had all these preconceived notions about others, doesn’t mean we can just go up to them and make them change. I know many individuals who have racist parents, grandparents, relatives, that actively try to change their outlook. To this day it continues. While the ability to change their opinion on others may be slim to none, at least we are trying. The difference here is the blatant public display of hatred towards another fellow human being.
It shouldn’t matter if racist remarks are very subtle, held within our families, or displayed publically on twitter. No matter what, we should always voice our opinion against racist remarks. We have different ways or modes of dealing with our parents, or relatives vs. public tweets. I think it’s perfectly fine and in anyone’s right to publically voice their opinions against racism on social media. It is not hypocritical. The assumptions made are just that, assumptions. Generalizing a whole population, calling them hypocritical could be skewed as another form of racism.
In the end, we should always make an effort to support our fellow human beings and voice our support for any individual, group, community, or race that is discriminated against. It shouldn’t matter if they are Indian, Arab, white, black, injured, short, tall, or from New York.
It shouldn’t matter if the racism is sourced to your parents, your relatives, or some random stranger on Twitter. Stand up for what you believe in, and what you should believe in is humanity and equality. Go ahead, freely voice your opinion and your stand against racism, colorism, discrimination, or prejudices.
We are humans, and we all have to continually work on ourselves. We are all flawed, but that doesn’t mean we can’t stop seeking to better ourselves.
From another standpoint, I am actually enthusiastic about the victory of Ms. Davuluri. It shows you the clear difference between American culture and Indian culture. After realizing the true extent to how Indian women are treated within our own cultures in India, she has the possibility to be the voice for Indian women everywhere, especially within India itself.
Voice your opinions, voice your support, plant a seed and watch it grow.
It’s time for a change, and it doesn’t have to start somewhere else or with someone else. Even if it’s through social media, you may have an impact on someone’s life in some positive way (trust me, I know from experience).
It can start with you.
To My Christians.
You know…. The Orthodox, the Pentecostals, the Mar Thomas, the Catholics, the Lutherans, the seventh-day Adventists, the Independents and whatever the other denominations (in no particular order)….. you know.. the CHRISTIANS!
Get it through your thick, ignorant, and belittling skulls that you are all CHRISTIANS.
No matter what power or authority you possess in your church, congregation, clergy, or diocese; understand that you are nothing but mere mortals who have no authority to belittle or demean any other individuals, congregations, churches, religions, clergy, or diocese
I’ve been debating to write this for a while, and honestly I’m not going to proofread. I won’t spell check, I may be harsh, and some of the things I say will not sit well with many of you (especially the older crowd).
A Christian fulfilled by their religion, fulfilled by their belief, heck that even tries to persuade others that their path is right is okay. Belief is a wonderful thing. It keeps us whole, it keeps us hopeful, it keeps us living the path that is for the most part socially acceptable and at least contains some self-satisfaction and fulfillment that you’re doing good in the world. If you’re one of these self-less, understanding, and open-minded individuals; keep doing you.
I am no one, I am just a student who has seen a lot, who has experienced a lot. This experience, especially in the past few months/years has triggered this post.
Because you are one denomination, it does NOT make you better than someone who is partaking in different rituals or services that don’t fit what’s “normal” to you. At the end of the day, as Christians you believe in a heaven and hell. You believe in one God. You believe in the basic principles of the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit as one entity but portrayed as different for who knows what purpose because as soon as I figure the bible out, or any holy text for that matter, I will have unlocked the mysteries of the universe (which I’m sure isn’t for me to unlock). Along with many other basic principles, you all ethnocentric denominations of CHRISTIANITY believe in the SAME UNDERLYING IDEA, CONCEPT, and GOD!
I don’t know Theology; I’m not knowledgeable about the history of the church, but frankly I don’t care at this moment. I’m furious with the belittling and despicable actions of some individuals in various denominations, churches, etc. Especially in the Indian community, some of the older generations are one of the most cold-hearted, prideful, and ignorant individuals I’ve ever met.
I do believe right now it’s way to late to change our previous generation. But these discriminating actions against other denominations NEEDS to stop. You are all pretty much fighting with yourself. If you want to make a point that your religion (Christianity) is welcoming, the truth, the way to salvation… stop beating yourself up. The only way this will happen is when the new order (the new generation) comes into power and we manage our churches, our congregations, our clergy, our house of worship.
I challenge each of you to be a bit more open-minded. Be a bit more understanding. If one person wants to attend a church, service, a denomination, or w/e it may be. Understand that you all believe in the same entity. Just a different approach in belief does NOT make you superior or inferior. Welcome others to freely partake in your ceremonies let them not be turned away because of an ignorant generation before you. I find it despicable that I have to say this about the sects WITHIN CHRISTIANITY! I find it disheartening that I even started to loose my trust and faith in these so-called churches or congregations of cold-hearted prideful individuals of power.
I believe in God, One God. I don’t think I will classify myself in a certain denomination because my parents or family do so. I will go to any church, denomination that I please. If I’m not allowed due to the lack of membership or history with other churches/denominations, it isn’t worth my time.
As priests, pastors, evangelists, revered or not revered individuals of these so called denominations or sects within Christianity… Your authority is not to push away the different. Your goal in life should be to show love and compassion by the way YOU LIVE your own life through giving, being understanding, and opening up your mind.
I would mention the specific encounters as an individual (and as a family) that I have experienced, but theres no point to dwell on the past. The only point is to change the future.
At the end of the day, we are all humans trying to figure out this game of life and death. Learn to respect each other (no matter what denomination/religion/race/sex/etc).
I apologize if any of this came off rude, that was NOT my intention.
"…a new generation of artists, writing genomes as fluently as Blake and Byron wrote verses, might create an abundance of new flowers and fruit and trees and birds to enrich the ecology of our planet. Most of these artists would be amateurs, but they would be in close touch with science, like the poets of the earlier Age of Wonder. The new Age of Wonder might bring together wealthy entrepreneurs like Venter and Kamen … and a worldwide community of gardeners and farmers and breeders, working together to make the planet beautiful as well as fertile, hospitable to hummingbirds as well as to humans." - Freeman Dyson
I know its been a while since I wrote on here. I’ve been extremely busy preparing for exams, classwork, volunteering, and just pretty much keeping myself busy. To top it off, the endless responsibilities at home for my family isn’t making the load any easier. I finally have spring break now, which is going to be a break from classwork, however… time to focus on some MCAT finally! I’ll write as much as I possibly can, but you shouldn’t expect much until around mid-may unfortunately. I’ve received a few messages asking why I haven’t written, so hopefully this clears things up a bit. No, I haven’t forgotten about this. I hope to keep this page up as long as possible for however many years as possible. Crazy to think I started this back in mid- 2011. It’s come a long way and I’m happy to see where it is. Keep in mind if anyone has any ideas for future articles or just want to share some thoughts, feel free to message me or write to me, even submit it using the link above.
“Reach high, for stars lie hidden in you. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.”
Don’t ever let anyone restrict your creativity, your hunger for knowledge, or your true self.
It took me years to realize that if you don’t go after what you want, don’t ever expect to be happy! It is bound to break a few relationships, shed a few friends, and strip some unnecessary people from your life, it isn’t easy. Sometimes you’ll feel like giving up, sometimes you’ll feel like you’ve lost all you had. This isn’t true.
What you lost was illusion of what you thought you were, what you gained is the reality and totality of what you are and can be and that my friend is ….anything you put your mind to.
Understand that people are naturally for themselves. Your life, for the majority of people is nothing but convenience, entertainment, or a hassle. Very few people are actually selfless and genuinely care for others. When you realize this fact, an awakening occurs and you realize… you can be the change. You can be the vessel of compassion that plants a seed to one day profoundly impact others around you. A thousand may pass not noticing your efforts, a handful will notice, and one or two of the handful that noticed will be transformed for the better. This few is where the seeded plant starts to grow.
Compassion is not a weakness, it is realizing the true nature of people. Compassion can never be taken advantage of, because once you realize the true nature of people, you have an ability to protect yourself from the restrictions and boundaries they try to put on you. If you allow yourself to be restricted, you have not fully understood what it is or what life is all about.
If you don’t understand what I just said, it’s perfectly fine. Life is relative. My experiences, my thoughts, and my yearning for knowledge is what has shaped me. Sometimes, its not always easy to connect the dots or be so eloquent as to express what I feel in just mere words.